Although change is an amazingly powerful force that drives us forward and makes us grow, sometimes it is hard not to struggle and resist where it wants to take us. I learned along the (hard) way that both the blank and black pages can turn out to be the greatest blessings in disguise.
Yet there I was, and there was no way back. I had to empty my cupboards, pantry and fridge during what felt like a food funeral (with tears and all) and I grieved because to me food represents the pure joy and expression of being alive, something that those close to me know very well. They've all seen my eyes light up as I wander around markets and shops enamoured, thinking out loud what dreamy tarts I could make with all the gorgeous ingredients; they've seen me glow in the dark after I've discovered a new quirky place to eat or spent a day picking bucketfuls of berries and making tangy marmalade in big copper kettles. I'm the food-loving friend, daughter, sister, auntie,... who cares and cooks with heart and soul. Because to me, food is love.
But what if one day the food that you love doesn't love you back anymore?
You become heartbroken, angry and frustrated and think of breaking up with food altogether. You wander through the specialised sections in the grocery store for ages, trying to find something that looks safe and - with any luck - palatable. When you finally find something that you like, you end up eating the same thing over and over again, every day, for weeks. That's what happened to me at least, and it was horrible. My social life dwindled, friends and family didn't want to risk cooking for me and I hardly dared to go out to eat anymore.
One morning I glanced at yet another portion of uninspired, parched porridge in my breakfast bowl and I became so exasperated with all that taste bud numbing blandness that I vowed to reclaim my food-love life right then and there. It instantly felt like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. Somehow that newfound empowerment sparked my creativity and began enriching my life and improving my health in ways I had never dared to imagine. I became deeply passionate about finding ways to cook fantastic - yet safe - food and finally started seeing my body as my closest ally instead of the enemy I had (wrongly) accused it to be. I started devouring every health related book I could get my hands on and was so delighted and grateful when I came across Kimberly Snyder's Beauty Detox Solution about a year ago, which felt like coming home and has helped me in so many ways.
So with a hint of reluctance I have to admit that in the end it turns out there was some good in those pesky allergies after all…! That being said, I certainly know they're no laughing matter and can wreak havoc on your life in so many ways, therefore I am greatly looking forward to start filling the blank pages of my blog here with my most helpful experiences and knowledge (and of course lots of mouthwatering recipes!) very soon. :)
Lots of love,